Prom was great. go to my mom's blog if you wanna see the awesome pictures. i'm not vain so i don't usually say stuff like this, but i looked sssssssssssssssssssssooooooooooooooooooooooooo beautiful in those pictures... even WITH my braces makin me all goofy looking. :P oh well... Justin and I had a good time but some friends of mine that we went with didn't have so much luck. Their car kept breaking down, and by the end of the night one of my best guy friends was absolutely crushed. This morning he came to school all depressed and it only added to my moodiness. :/
a lot of times when i think about justin's and my relationship, i get really sad and confused. i mean we've promised a lot to each other and i just think... how could either him or I break those promises? i mean their not sacred vows or anything, but how does anyone break such big promises... i dunno, i just don't want to think about it anymore... i don't wanna doubt and i don't wanna think, cos when i think i think too much and when i think too much i get a headache. it's just really... hard... and as time goes on i'm noticing more and more things that... just... make me really think and really... wonder... whether Justin and I are a practical match? I guess only time will tell, but i really want us to work out... because i hate doubting... if Justin ever knew how much i doubted, he would be absolutely crushed. I really don't want to lose the best thing in my life since Jesus... but it's in God's hands, i've let go and so i'm not in control anymore... so who am i to say what's what... maybe I DON'T know what i really want... maybe... maybe I'm just dilusional... but i pray that everything will work out the way it's supposed to with as little pain as possible...
